I have to keep reminding myself that when one door closes, another door will open somewhere..hopefully!

I graduated from nursing school last Friday with all the good stuff (Summa Cum Laude, Sigma Theta Tau, etc, etc.)...kind of weird how a lot of the "good stuff" is in Greek . It feels like I've worked my bum off since I was born when it comes to academics. I have a bunch of professional and personal references that can vouch for my character. Even with all of this, I remain unemployed . Children's Mercy decided not to hire me..don't ask why because the only thing I can think of is that they decided to hire a Kansas University nursing student that they knew from clinicals (which makes sense..I just wish they would not have waited 2 months to tell me). I am also graduating in one of the worst economic times this country has seen in awhile. Even hospitals are going on hiring freezes and though they still need nurses, they don't want to use the money to train a new grad when they can find a registered nurse with experience!

So, as irony would have it, even with the best grades, great references, and good work ethic...politics and luck still find a part to play in my life. Some of my favourite people in this world have not put in nearly the amount of work that I have put in over the years, and yet everything falls into place for them. As pessimistic as this sounds...I really am trying to focus on the fact that this "bad luck", or whatever you want to call it, has really nothing to do with me as a person and everything to do with life. C'est la vie.

I'll eventually find a job (given it won't be the one I really want). I'm just hoping that I'll find this job before I go on my trip. If I can't find one before I leave on my trip, I hope that I find one before my apartment's move in date. If I don't have a job by then, I might have to give up my apartment (say goodbye to a $200 deposit and $140 processing fee) and stay here. I envy those people that can just say to me "everything happens for a reason..."  I wish I had the guts to say that if I can't get a job in KC, I'll just continue to look around the country in places like Chicago, NY, or Boston.

However, I was cursed with a rational and logical mind .